I am an atheist

I am an atheist!!! thats the most provoking statement one can make in a company of normal-but-reflective people....immediately you are in a teleological jargon of all sorts...why?? don't you think this world has a design??...don't you think we all have a purpose of being here???how can you be so sure??..................another twenty pages extends the list of questions..............

My answer is simple and straight forward...(u will soon realise thats not the case)..look i have done three years of graduation on formal and informal arguments on the existence of GOD....every western philosopher has at some point touched this all too important question.....you have the weirdest arguments proving/disproving the existence,omni- add-as-many-combos of God...all various types of attributes.....so i know its a question that racks the thinking mind of almost every individual...if not you are a blind believer constantly negotiating with your faith....coming back to answers...this is the simple part.....i m not going dwell on this question...i simply don't want to....i have reached that zone where blind faith is absolutely impossible....i know i m too small a creature in this "design" to figure things out...arrre i can't figure out dinner, what do you expect...all i am saying is that i suspend this question for the time-being as unviable...if there is God,let there be one....im too out of sync to fall on my knees....

But let me clarify i do not concede to the fact that god or religion is an unimportant factor, it is one single factor in history that has and will bring together strangers and astrange neighbours...it still stand as the pivotal point in discourse and you can't hide away....our languages have the residue of this.....the nazis,jews,muslims....they are all now more than religious or cultural identities...they are political identities built on religion..but in my life, at this point, being also the privileged brat that i am.....it is a redundant concept...it might not be so twenty years later...i m always in flux.....i m Zeno's dad when it comes to flux....all i am saying is that i don't want to be answering this right now....it is of no use to me...i can't chicken out and become agnostic...because for me that is accepting defeat...others can be, i don't care..but in my perception of the matter, i can't...i value this issue...

For me God is a concept.....concept based on solace.....we are tiny creatures in a world too huge for us or even in a life whose trajectory we can't steer....so in times of absolute distress we postulate a being that is greater than us in all senses and cushions our subconscious from possible mental damage....it is an absolutely rational theory for the most irritional concept....you weave bzillion concept about it/him/her and above all a code of conduct for action. faith is its ritualistic entry.....if i can accept premises like "i m a female" with so less contemplation then why is this so difficult to grasp.....these ethics and laws set down by the "faithful" lead daily life and action....it also spins into a complicated jargon as time moves.....and as all basic concepts do, gives birth to the prodigal son/sects which go against it like "atheism"....root is still theos...concept still inclusive, within the whole jargon of GOD....son accepts lineage but chooses to be iconoclastic ( i told you language had residues, i can't bye-pass that) ........if you are saying take the premise of existence of god and i say no ...but to say no i need to first know god.....so then why the offense......am only reasserting the concept...bringing it to forefront...then why so many questions!!!