Don't know much about geology, dono much biology...all i know is that i love you....okay not a coincidence..... it is that day of the year a lot of people look forward to....i hear plans people have made and am aghast...what a gaping distance...here i am telling my boss that i don't know how to create people friendly technological solutions for the website or maro gyaan on equity...so my song is...dono much about equity, dono much about technology...all i know is....ooops now thats the baffling point...what do i know...i clearly know all that i dono....can't say i know much about love cause that is an eternally baffling question in my short life...you do it this way or that you are still lost...or maybe you just did too much that got you confused...commitment crisis...what is that emanicipating relation with the opposite sex (fully presuming that i have an affinity for the same)...is there one? Poooh this is too complicated.....i think somewhere i preferred if it was more rustic like...i am horny...i need to have sex....oooh i have babies....easier than comfort zones and working on relationships........ok, ok you got me...i don't have topic in mind...i don't want to discuss love, life and relationship...i don't have experience in it...though i am bent on setting a track record...i am writing this blog because i want to write...and to write i needed an excuse...i use this as my perfect excuse....frankly i can't perceive living fifty odd years with the same person....its suicidal...aargh... but i also like to see myself getting old with one person.....man i need to take a psychoanalytic test to find out what i really want...i step into so much jargon i can't even convince myself about my priorities....my advice to new lovers and old, on this holy commercial day, is that you have got to work on a relationship like this is the end of the world otherwise guys there are too many distraction in this world that can lead to a abyss...from where coming back to life is a faded question!!
moreover I have made a very exciting discovery...after years of hibernating in relationships i am now getting addicted to singlehood...of course apart from those tiring moments when you want to cry but have no extra pair of shoulders...when you sitting alone with your troubles with no one to talk...when you are crying secretly and it remains a secret....and of course when you wana blow up someone or when you are just plain horny....ok i realise i have given lots of instances...and i know that feeling when you have zillions of friends but still reach a point when talking to no one is comforting....but still these are just phases that passes...it looks like it never will end but it does...painfully but does....so i now understand the theory that buddhism proposes on samsaara...its a fleeting sensation that passes...like an itch...you are sooo conditioned to itch but if you actually sit back and hold it, observe it...it fades away....i am not trivialising but i am saying it will pass...these are for the heart broken ones who hold on tight to everything they thought they owned...havng said all that i also know the masochistic pleasure of holding on to something you can't have....the pleasure derived of sinking deeply into depression...of hiding in a shell like theres no tomorrow...convincing yourself that life is over...pushing yourself to total self contempt so that you never have to try again....pleasure of hurting oneself...i must say that most humans have strong suicidal tendency....to scath their skins in pain...like burning yourself or slowly drowning...most of us adopt this perspective...but great are they who have the capacity...rare as it is...to take things as it comes....to see the bigger picture....to move ahead...so in the most puppy love fashion let me...on this day...pay my respect to these great icons on this planet...but coming coming back to my topic.....singlehood especially after doublehood helps you really understand the premium that could be applied on your time and money...the value of time spend on your own,with friends, with any arbid person....the opportunity to flirt without the need to seek redemption or permission....and most of all the liberty to eat onions....for that matter anything!!
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this is the sorta post that i was talkin to u about on mail. it seems honest to a level i cant hope to be, and it was engaging even though u were essentially in conversation with yourself. will read this one again, surely.
thanks...thats definitely encouragement....but i still don't think it has met the standard of the last on you wrote...i thought that was killer with or withour levels of honesty or talking to oneself...so strength i guess workss both ways...
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